what i thought

When your head is full of thoughts, 
But you just can't arrange the words into sentences

You think everything you say doesn't make sense, 
And makes you look stupid

You feel so lonely, 
And think nobody understands you

You can't tell others what's wrong, 
Or make them understand what is going on in your head

Because you just can't make the words into sentences, 
Even though your head is full of thoughts

An old piece from a few years back that I thought I should share. I used to dream quite a lot, about dark places and darker souls. Sometimes I wonder where that whimsical part of me has gone. I'm not like I was before.

setahun lamanya akhirnya back to blogger.

efek tumblr diblokir. 

;)

I loved a man a few year ago. He was so kind and cool. I watch him all the time and I didn't tell him. He was mine and I didn't want a share him for other's. But it happened. My big nightmare is happened and he felt in love with other's. I can't believe what I heard. And that minute,thats has to be over but my love isn't over because it was real.
A mounths later,it still hurts. I can't stand saw them. It hurts because she is my best and they are love each other now.
Now,I'm still love him. I'm still cry when I saw him. I'm still smile when I think about him. Because I love him. İt's not problem for me because we're impossible but it just hurts. Thats all.

begun of a 2017

Assalamualaikum...

how long i'm not writing on my blog?

maybe its been a 2 years.

my first post on a 2017.

the beginning of 2017 it's complicated.

but, i can leave my past so fast.

i removed the memory about that people.

all people who hurted me.

and i said thanks for Allah who brought my happines came to my life.