Unloved

They say that sometimes if you really love someone you have to let them go. I never understood that until the day I saw you smiling. Your eyes were sparkling, they were full of joy and pure happiness. I realized that we are not meant to be in everyone’s life, no matter how much we want to. I honestly want to be a part of your life, like you know the best one, but I guess the odds this time aren’t in my favor. I kept looking at you and something similar to a lightning bolt hit my heart. It hurt like hell but I knew I had to do that, I had to leave you behind. I cried quietly so that no one could see. I had to get away from there, away from you, away from everyone else. Even tho it hurt and to be completely honest it still does, I decided that it was time to move on and start over. You know, I will cherish every moment that we spent together, every conversation , the laughs we shared, the tears, actually everything. Your name is craved up on my heart and it will be a part of me, now and always. Yes I will carry on living but deep down I know that your shadow will always be there with me and for me, supporting everything I will do from now on and at the same time believing in me when no one else will. That’s why I’m thanking you from the bottom of my heart for teaching me what love really is and I’m going to say it one last time. I love you, always had, always will.

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They say that sometimes if you really love someone you have to let them go. I never understood that until the day I saw you smiling. Your eyes were sparkling, they were full of joy and pure happiness. I realized that we are not meant to be in everyone’s life, no matter how much we want to. I honestly want to be a part of your life, like you know the best one, but I guess the odds this time aren’t in my favor. I kept looking at you and something similar to a lightning bolt hit my heart. It hurt like hell but I knew I had to do that, I had to leave you behind. I cried quietly so that no one could see. I had to get away from there, away from you, away from everyone else. Even tho it hurt and to be completely honest it still does, I decided that it was time to move on and start over. You know, I will cherish every moment that we spent together, every conversation , the laughs we shared, the tears, actually everything. Your name is craved up on my heart and it will be a part of me, now and always. Yes I will carry on living but deep down I know that your shadow will always be there with me and for me, supporting everything I will do from now on and at the same time believing in me when no one else will. That’s why I’m thanking you from the bottom of my heart for teaching me what love really is and I’m going to say it one last time. I love you, always had, always will.

The only one little heart break

Did you ever fall in love? If your answer is yes, then keep on reading. If your answer is no, don't close this post, you might learn something new reading this.

I've been dreaming about my prince charming, who will come one day and save me from this miserable life. I prayed the God to send me somebody who will make me happy. And then I found him. He was everything that I ever needed. He was smart, funny, kind and handsome as well. My heart was a roller coaster every time when I saw him. I was happy and so crazy in love. But he didn't know that as much as I didn't know that he is taken.

My heart broke in a thousand pieces. I was broken, sad and alone. I was so mad at myself because I let myself fall in love with somebody whose name I didn't even know. I cried a lot that day when I saw them together. She was everything that I will never be. They fit so well, but it hurts.
I am devastated. I'm a mess right now. Love can be such a nice thing, great feeling. It's funny how bad it can hurt at the same time. I love him and because of that, I want him to be happy. If she makes him happy, I wish them luck. I want only the best for them.

I prayed the God to send me somebody, but now I am praying Him to make me forget all this pain caused because of unrequited love.

you

i stared into your broken irises. 
i did not know what to do.
you may be broken, but so am i. 
the only difference is you broke yourself by leaving.
so in the end, you broke both of us.

you also ripped out my blank papers that i haven't yet to write a story for myself. 
almost as if you wanted to put my life on hold.

pulling me away from my thoughts.
and then i thought, possibly the story that was meant to be written on those empty pages were supposed to spent with you.

no more

I don't see any sunshine in your eyes. 
The last sunshine I saw left me blinded. 
It was beautiful. Fulfilling. Magical. Different. 
But it left me numb. Heartbroken. Empty.

Funny how the things that shine the brightest 
sometimes make us immerse in the deepest dark.

I have no words left to be spoken. 
No need to redeem myself. 
No love to give. 
No passion in my lungs for another sunshine.

I don't need to be blinded again. I don't want to. 
I'm done with those things. 
The things that leave me wanting, begging for more. 
Longing for a touch, a feeling, a glare, an explosion.

I'm done.

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How to deal with fake friends? That's not easy. It depends on how long do you know that friend. If you know that person for a short period of time it would be easier! I mean that it's not a close friend you know... So here are some type of ''tips'' or '' advice'' (or whatever you want to call it) to help you to deal with that type of people.

1. Try to know what are they talking about you behind your back 
It might sound idiotic but it helped me to know how to deal with him/ her. When you know what are they talking about you you'll probably know what type of person they are!

2. Try to slowly distance from them 
If you're shy this might work for you. If you're in a delicate situation (personally talking) and you don't want any confrontation this is the best way for you. In this way, you don't have to give any explanation to anyone :)

3. Try to talk to them 
This way it's the total opposite of the other one I just told you. This is about talking with that person, know the reason why they did something like that and try to solve that problem if you want to keep that person in your life.

Here I'm going to put some signs that a person is fake with ya. 
- They talk mean things about you behind your back. 
- They're jealous of you when you win something. 
- They're egocentric. 
- They don't listen to you if they're not interested. 
- They don't wanna be around you if they don't gain anything for it. 
- They keep things from you with other people and laugh in your face to make you feel bad.

I really hope you don't have to deal with this type of people but life is very unfair. That's why I wrote this article. I wish in some way it helped you. 

i just wanna know

I want to know how often you think of me. 
I want to know if it kills you when I take forever to respond. 
I want to know if your favorite song reminds you of me. 
I want to know that when you sing to me the words you sing are meant to be heard for my ears only. 
I want to know how much I mean to you. 
I want to know if you want me to be your forever. 
I want to know.

what i thought

When your head is full of thoughts, 
But you just can't arrange the words into sentences

You think everything you say doesn't make sense, 
And makes you look stupid

You feel so lonely, 
And think nobody understands you

You can't tell others what's wrong, 
Or make them understand what is going on in your head

Because you just can't make the words into sentences, 
Even though your head is full of thoughts

An old piece from a few years back that I thought I should share. I used to dream quite a lot, about dark places and darker souls. Sometimes I wonder where that whimsical part of me has gone. I'm not like I was before.

setahun lamanya akhirnya back to blogger.

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